Mum, I miss you so very much - everyday without you is painful, I miss you smile, your laugh, your love of life, your love of soap operas, but most of all I miss your unconditional love for me ... yes, everyday is just a little darker and a bit sadder without you, but some days are even harder - Today is Lily's first birthday and those close to you know how very much you were looking forward to being part of her life ... and it was so moving that you were able to meet her before you left us - a beautiful and heart wrenching meeting ... Mum, she is precious and J&B love her so very much, I promise to look out for her and spoil her as you would have done, and we will make sure she knows what a beautiful, funny, loving and so very brave Great Grandmother she had for those first few weeks of her life.